You're so. . . You

You're different now. . . you're closer than you've ever been and i havent realised it. i've been looking for you in the places you're not, in the empty and lost things, but that's not where you are. you're here, close, and i'm sorry that i've been quiet. i'm sorry that i haven't gone after you like i should. I'm heavy hearted, almost broken hearted. you take me just like i am though, and today's a new beginning again. Dad, i just want to be close. . . no big words, no dictionary terms, just me, just you, let the world pass by, forget everything that's going on, right now, just let it be me, you and me and you, and let that be it. in the quiet, i can hear your whisper, and in the middle of the crowds, it's all i'll listen for. i've missed you, oh beloved, joy of my heart, song of my soul, drown me in your love, leave no part unsaturated, leave all things you. leave me you. you're so amazing, so past words, bigger then the small tasks i make for myself, you're bigger then my purpose, greater then my will and my ambition, you're YOU. you're so. . .You're so. . .You.